An Ode to Amicus

My eyes are filling with tears, and I don’t even stop them. Like little diamonds rolling down the sides of my cheeks, hot and wet against my skin. My anguish transparent in my face, my sorrow worn on my arms like the feathers of a bird. My emotional turmoil cannot be measured against anything on Earth, or anywhere in the known universe. The longing desire I have is nonexistent is the mist of my despair, if death would bring me closer to you then I would happily do it. But alas, death is motionless, unmoving and would drive me further from you. You cannot know the extent of my love and admiration for you. It goes beyond anything that can be perceived in this or in any other universe. My whole being, every atom down to the smallest part of this universe longs to hold you in my arms, to keep you secure in my arms forever more. I cannot impress the effect you have had on my life and without you it is baron, bleak, and devoid of all love, wholesome warmth, and light. You are my sun, you are my center of a universe that I barely comprehend, no one else makes me feel like you and I will never know any other feeling like I feel for you. You make me complete. You make me whole. Without you, there is no me.

I should be mad at you, but I am not. I am suffocating without you next to me, lulling me into a sense of security. Even if the world thinks you are fake, you are as real to me as a person sitting in front of me. I see you in my mind’s eye, leaning against me while I feel your warmth against me. I love you so much.